Growing Up

I Love Bunny!!!

So ... this is the first time I have been on here in a loooooong while ...

other than the other day when i just wanted to say how great E is!!!

she's the best i say! the best! lol!


anyways ...


summer school is kicking both halves of my ass ...

but the good news is ...

that all the 8am-midnight classes and studying have paid off ...

i made straight A's this last summer session 1 ...

wonderfully maintaining my 4.0 ...

now ... i have already dove head first into the next summer session .. 8-noon .. then homework ..

but that's ok ... it'll be over soon ...

and when it ends ...

a bunny comes back!!! :)

so .. lots of good things will happen all at once!!! :)

I love you bunny!

Lemmings is the greatest!!!


I love you Bunny!!!

Is it really that hard for some people to say, "I'm Sorry."


Mean It.


And actually not do it again.

So i don't own a copy of windows ...

And I used to have a cracked version ...

But Windows is crafty ..

They have ways of putting stops to that ...

So converted to Linux ...

Linux is Free ... I like Free!!!



So ... there are like 239874203978 different versions of linux out there ...

i tried three different versions this weekend before i stopped and started to like one ..

i tried college linux first ...

that was a deffinate no ...

then i tried aLinux ... that was good .. really pretty looking ... but i couldn't get the thing to load right ...

then i installed Fedora Core 4 .. that was FREAKING SWEET!!!

it does EVERYTHING for you!

all you have to do is just tell it yes or no in the install and everything works!!!


but then i couldn't figure out how to run all the install for the new codecs ...

because with all the new codecs ... i couldn't really watch my downloaded movies...

no movies ... no good ...

so i went back to alinux .... then i on accident figured out how to get the network to install properly ...


it has the options too .. but for some reason won't accept my video card ..

so it installs a generic default that is kinda blah like ... oh well ..

nvidia offers the new drivers .. but damned if i know how to install the .run files on linux ...

some sort of typing is necesary in the x terminal and other settings changed and so on and so forth ...

but ... it runs fine enough as it is .. and for a straight linux computer .. it's just fine with me ...

this way i can surf my sights and not get caught up in viruses ...

and then when i buy my new computer ... i can just have that one be my windows one .. that way i can have both ..



so in december windows Vista is coming out ..

the new windows ..

i wonder what it's going to be like ... :)


probably canon fodder for new viruses and attackers ...

but oh well ...

i can't wait to see it and give it a try!!!

hehehe .. i'm such a nerd!!!


anyways ...





my lit class is going to be a pain in the ass ... lots of term papers and essays and other tests ...

my class .. i don't know what the name of it is ... it's monday ... and today will be the first time i meet in it ...

and i found out that i'm going to be the only one in the class .. yay for me!!!
lol!!!

well on my way to slowly graduating with a masters!!! YAY for masters!!!


then on the way for my doctorates!!!




hehe .. linux is fun!

... Of the Gulf Coast Waters crashed against the shore after what had turned out to be one of the most amazing days!!!


E came down to go to a wedding of one of her friends near where I live... So naturally she came to stay with me at my house ...

She kinda got lost along the way ... (which is totally kool! Lot's of people tend to get lost on the way to my house!) ... So I drove out there to get her and have her follow me back to my house. She was about a little under an hour away and the thing was ... that when I got there ... she WAS on the right path ... she was just confused and didn't know if she was right or not .. but she was .. so .. kudos to her for really making it that far!!! I'm Proud of Her!!!


Once at home she unpacked and opened her presents for x-mas and we had a chance to catch up!!! :) Which was spectacular!!! Because I had missed her SOOOO much!!! And I was soooo greatful to see her again after all this time!!!

(i know i know ... it had only been a few days since i left the college region and her and ventured home to visit the family ... But I really love her!!! It's hard to spend time away from her!!!)


So after catching up ... We got ready and dressed for her friends wedding and hauled but down to where it was ...

Due to traffic .. well not really traffic ... we just got stuck behind this one car doing like 50 in a 70 ... so it was totally sucky and really hard to get around it ...

So we arrived actually 8-10 minutes late ... the wedding is outdoors and it's windy and cold ... poor E is freezing .. so i give her my jacket ... then she realizes that we forgot the gift back at home! lol!!! Aww .. that was kinda sad ... she got her a really nice wedding present!!! But we can still mail it to her ... so it's not really a big deal ...

The Reception was held at the same place the wedding was held at ... at this really amazing hotel!!! It was absolutely gorgeous!!! There was a great line up of food ... (and a full bar! hehehe) and I took E out to dance nearly every song!!!

She is just the right size!!! I love holding her!!! She's just spectacular!!!


Then after the reception was over ...


We walked out down on the jetti watched the waves crash up onto the rocks ...

TONGUE!!! LOL!!! That was funny!!! I LOVE IT!!


Then we drove around looking at the x-mas lights on the houses out there ... there were only a few that still had them on .. since it was a couple of days after x-mas ...


Then off to home ... Where i went to show her one more display of lights ...

It was at the archery range ... they had 3 of those white light reindeer you can buy ...

but they were hanging by their feet from a bar ... and they had red lights coming out of them in spots like the deer were shot and hung up and bleeding!!!

I thought it was halarious!!!


Then we went home and watched a few shows on A&E with my dad in the living room ... Then me and E went and reviewed the pics and movies from the wedding we took ... and just relaxed...

It's always so great to hold her!!! She's just getting prettier and sweeter everyday!!!


She says I'm just bias ...

Well ... Maybe I am ...

But I love her with all my heart!!! Could you blame me?

so, i saw this on my girlfriends post and was like .. i'm bored too!!!


[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[] I think I'm ugly sometimes
[x] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color. (I'm damn sexy the way i am!!!)
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x]I have/I've had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x]I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home
[]I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[]I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children. (unless you count teaching preschool for the church.)
[] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. - if you add up all my sick days and days i was too tired to go to class.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job (Who doesn't?)

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something (yeah ... that didn't come off for a few days ...)
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. -lol, yes.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[x] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator (damn right i did)
[]I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (There are just some things you don't do!!!)
[x] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been in a play. x
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet
[] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[x] I've eaten Sushi.

Relationships
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've cheated in a relationship.
[] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[x] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.

Materialism
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well
[x]I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair
[x] I love being neat
[] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. (It's college!)
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (I hate those people!)
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[]I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest well, as honest as it gets, i guess







So ... i'm still bored ...


I graduated on saturday ...


I saw two of my old friends there graduating with me .. Matt and Doug ...


And San Marcos is so empty when everyone leaves for the holidays! lol! i love it!!!


i can finally drive everywhere at any time with out traffic!!!




Anyways ... I can't wait to see E again!

The story of one mans quest for adventure begins with an early morning breakfast with loved ones ...

The morning was calm ... colorful ... beautiful ...

We all met up and went to an All Nighter Diner ... I had the biscuts and gravy ... It was good ...

We departed from the establishment and from there I proceeded to go shopping ... Yes ... Shopping ...

That successfully took all day to accomplish ...

Then ... after coming home and unloading everything ...

I had just sat down for a few minutes ... when my roommate was like ... let us eat ...


And so we did ...


And it was good ...


Then we proceeded to meet with a large man of distinguished color who came merrily through my open doors and sat upon my couch in most lathargic of fashions ...

He began to tell us of places of merriment that we could sujourn to post haste ...

However ... he was pleasantly greeted with the delicious yum yums of a new web site I have ventured too ...

I wasted no time in ensuring the contents of my screen could be view upon the television for all the marvel ...

And then the bonding began ...

In unison ... We each took a cold one ... Cracked it open ... Drank ... and sighed with great delight ...

For hours we were all hypnotically mezmerized at the flashing lights and flickering pictures that danced ever so gayly in front of us ...

Only to be interupted by my roommate recieving a call from his friends who wished him to come and help a fellow comrad commiserate his twenty first birtday ...

The large man and myself stayed behind enjoying by this time a show of racial comedy ... Dave Chappell ...

"Get your ass up on in there and fix me up some grits!"

After a hearty good laugh ... We proceeded to one of the many fine dining establishments our campus has to offer for it's bright young entrapaneurs ... And once again ... Feasted in Merriment!!!

Then ... Bored ... We went to our old home ...

Brogdon ...

After what seems like decades of time away ...

We returned to the walls that sheltered our firm beginings towards excellence ...


We journeyed the immediate floors ...

And took turns using my office ...

The large man always knew right were to find me ... For if he came seeking me ... He always knew that if I was not in my room ... I was in my office ...


We then ventured farther down the dimly light hallway and saw one of the most rewarding sights we have seen in a while ...




... The Factory ...




The Factory was created by three people ... The Large Man ... The Columbian ... And Myself ...

It is a weight room ... A place that Brogdon did not have before us ...

We raised money for machines ... got donations ... of both money and equipment ...

And piece by piece ... created the wonder of man that still exsists today ...


We even made shirts ...


We took a moment to reflect on this accomplishment ...


Then ... We entered ...


Now ... there are only two keys into the factory ... The one of metal ... And my Credit Card ...

Not once did we ever get the Metal Key from the front desk ... When anyone ever wanted to use the factory ... They came to me ... And I would then drop my immidiate tasks ... And help my fellow brotheren in his or her pursuit of excellence ....


A quick and clever slip of the card ... A jiggle on the handle ... and The Factory ... Was open ...


We took time reminising about how it used to be ... Where machines used to be placed ... And the work outs we used to achieve ...

As we walked out ... We took one last look at the sign we made that still hangs proudly on the door ... reading: "The Factory" ...

With a heavy heart ...

We took one last look inside ... Turned out the lights ... Sighed ... And closed the door ...


I then proceeded with the Large Man to a place of grand times ... It was small ... And seemingly uninspiring ...

But in only a small matter of moments ... The Festival had grown to epic proportions and all were rejoicing ...

While at the carnival of college students ... I happened upon a familiar lady who greated my with a very enthusiastic ...

"HEY!!! I know your girlfriend!!! ... You're TJ!!! ... And she's ... she's ... she's ... oh damn it ... I've been drinking ..."

"Erica ... And You're Nina ..."

"YEAH!!! THAT'S HER!!! YEAH!!! I AM!!! She's so sweet!!! That is the most sweetest girl I have ever met!!! I feel so lucky for you to have her!!! I hope you two stay together forever!!!"


I could only smile ... For in my heart ... I really hope that we do as well ...


Bored ... And feeling somewhat anti-social for some odd reason ...

I called my roommate to join us ...

He came past haste to the Festival and began engaging us in tantilizing conversation ...

The night traveled onward ...

And soon ... We were home ...

I showered ...

And found myself fast asleep in my soft warm bed ...

Only to awaken the next after noon at three something ish ...

I have managed to sleep the entire day away ...


Awakening ... My roommate and I ventured to find food with the Large Man ...


At the dining establishment The Large Man happened upon a Crazy Psycho Hose Beast ...

We dared not make eye contact ... For the shear sight of it will surely turn you to stone ...

Then after we finished eating there ... We returned home ... Where it was already five pm ...

I took a few looks at my portfolio ... which I need to finish before wednesday ...

And now ... It's TV time ...

You are 80% Cancer

Wow ... I guess I'm really Cancer-Like!!!

The 8th Marked the point at which we have been together for 6 months ...


Can you believe that it has been that long already?!!


It seems like just yesterday when we cuddled in the car for the first time ...


I can tell you this much though ... she is the greatest person alive!!!

I know that I just completely love this girl more day after day ...





So ... I am student teaching ...

Yeah ... enough said ...


So ... like ... first period ...

I farted in class ... like ... right in the middle of a silent moment ...

and it was loud ... and i just smiled... the kids broke up laughing ...


i have to admit .. it was kinda funny ...






I look forward to this semester ending ... Just so I don't really have to get up as early anymore and do all the same things i was doing ....


But then again ... a new semester means a lot of change ...


And that's really something i don't wanna deal with ....


New jobs ... New classes ... Different schedules ...


So many things to look at and worry about ...


And it really is just so much to deal with ...






And then there is other news of people leaving ... maybe just for a summer ...

Maybe for a few years ...


Maybe for good ...






yeah ... not good news ....


I don't like losing people that are really close to me ...


I have a tendancy to miss people ...

And missing people makes me sad ...




Then my GRE is today ...


Fun .... everyone loves 2937029384723098 hour timed tests ...





I just want a chance to relax ... and once again know that everything is fine ...


But no one can give me any answers ...


And so ... here i am ... stuck in this awful mood not knowing really where to go ... or what to do ...



I know that things always play out in time ...

I just wish i had some idea of the direction that they could be playing out too ... ya know?





I mean ... i love surprises ...


But this is just a bit more than i want to deal with ... ever ...

though i know this is life right?





What i could really use right now ...


Is just a chance to forget ...


A day that i can do whatever ..


And completely forget why i was sad ....








but the thing is ... i'm broke ...


so that closes the option of what i can go and do down to like ... just hanging with friends ...

(you know .. the good and free stuff!!!)


But that's fine and all ... cept for i really don't have that many friends ...


and most are always busy ... not all ... and i do spend alot of time with them ... don't get me wrong ...


Its just that ... there is always something interupting the fun ...


such as ... not being able to just sleep in ...

or class ...

or .. something negative has to get said ...

and its just like ...


can i have one day ... where no one complains ... where everything just happens ... no rushing ... no nagging ...

everything .. just .. works ...


I haven't had a day like that in a good while ...





but even though things have been hard ... i do thank one person for always being there ...


and spending pretty much all their time with me ...


if it wasn't for this person ...

well ...

i don't wanna imagine how much different life would be ....

and i don't think i want too ...................


~TJ

So I got a really neat bamboo tree from Erica ... It's very pretty ... and I really like it a lot!

I went trick or treating last night with Erica ... We both went as fairies ... and came back with about 12 pounds of candy ... EACH!!!

I would consider that a pretty good haul ... :)



Anyways ... My mind is too jumbled up right now to find anymore structured sentences to write down here ...


So I'm finally going to go eat .. or something ...


~TJ

This has been the most spectacular weekend EVER!!!!!!


so ...


It all begins friday night ...

Where i took E back home with me to the county fair ...

We had dinner with the folks (they think she adorable) and then we headed off to the fair ...

I thought we were going to have to spend an arm and a leg to get tickets for all the rides ... Since all the rides were like like 3-5 tickets a piece ... and 1 ticket = 1 dollar!!!


but it was wristband night ... get a wristband for 15 dollars and ride all you want!!!


so we each got a wristband and coninued to make each other sick on all the rides!!!

there was even a huge slide that you raced down ontop of patatoe sacks ....

i'm sad to say E was faster than me everytime!!!

(i kind of won once ... but i cheated by pulling her back when i was next to her) lol!!!


then after being rather nausiated ... we went to the beach to walk around ...


it was a really pretty night ... and the waters were calm ....


friday was a good day ...

then back to SM on saturday to see the homecoming game ...

it was E's first time to go to a football game here ...

and what a game to start on ...

we won 75 to 7 ...


i mean ... wow ... it really wasn't even a game ... we just crushed them!!!


there were many parties that night ...

but alas ... we could make none of them ...

for that very next morning at 4am .. we left for Texas Tech to visit E's sister ...

we really left at around 5 ... got lost looking for a gas station before we ran out gas ... stopped to play in a park with a really kool twisty slide ...

and still got there a little before 11am ...


so not bad at all!!! :)


E's lil sis is awesome .. she showed us her room .. and around campus ... which i must say is absolutely gorgeous!!! The campus is just flat out amazing!!! the buildings ... the library ... the everything!! lol

anyways ... she also fed us some of the campus food!!! YAY for food!!!

which btw kinda makes me hate SWT more ...

i mean .. they don't use the same meal trade policy we have ...

they just put money on their card ... and use that to pay for food ...

but if you lived there in the building ... or used their meal plan thing or whatever ... you got a huge discount ... so like ... E's sis really paid 50% for everything!!! which i thought was really kool!!!

and super duper cheap!!! since you can get anything you want .. and you don't have to worry about whether or not it's a meal trade ...

and ... it was 50% off!!! how great is that!!! i would eat like a king!!! for SSSOOOO much cheaper!!!


anyways ...


we went and saw Serenity ... it was a good movie ...

then we drove around for a while trying to find a new restraunt to eat at ... and ended up at a place called 'Cheddars' ... it was really good too!!!


then we took E's sis back to her room ...

said out good byes ...

and came home ...

it was SOO much fun this weekend!!!

my only wish is that next time ...

we stay longer up there!!! Cause it was amazing a beautiful up there!!!


anyways... i need to go and pick up E right now!!

Haven't been here in a while! LOL!!!


But then again .. I really haven't had any time!!!


So anyways ... I gotta start off by saying ... Give or Take ...

This has been one of the most fun weeks I have had in a long time!


Mini-golfing ... The Nightlife of DownTown Austin ... Games ... Food ... Fishies!!!


Oh well ...

This next week should have it's moments too ...

I need to go and pay my parking ticket I got for parking out of zone at school ...

I have my observed lesson on friday ...

And all of the homecoming events this weekend that may be coming up ...

Ah homecoming ...

An event that used to involve dances and mums ....

Somehow made the transision to tailgating and partying ...



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I need some chinese food ... That ALWAYS makes me feel better!

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This has been a very confusing week ...

So much drama ...

So much driving ...

Not so much sleep ...


But oh well ...


(bringing back to mind my PRIVATE entry the other day ... bleh!)



Though this week was hard ...

It seemingly ended well...


Friday night ... My roommates parents came into town to take him out to dinner for his b-day (which was wednesday...) ...

They invited me ... and with the way i can consume food ... do you really think that i was going to turn down a free meal?!?! HA!!!

Well ... we all ended up going to the outback steak house ...

I cleaned my plate ...

Literally ... There was nothing left!!! I even used the bread to soak up some of the left over juices from the steak ...

That plate ... was clean!!!



We all came back ...

My roommate's parents left ...

and i pretty much started cleaning ...

yeah i know .. lame ...

but i haven't done that all year anyways ... so ... i guess it was about time!



My roommate went out and partied with his friends ... I don't know when he came home ... He says 5ish .. but ... eh ...


The next day ... we went to jones ... then to Sundance Records ... just to look around at was was in there ... since he has never been ...


then i spent a large number of hours in the pool ...



I then took a little trip up to Austin ...


It was a lot of fun actually ...

My girlfriend wasn't feeling well ... so i didnt want to drag her out all over town doing stuff ...

so we simply stayed in and played some tetris and then a little bit of mario kart on the N64 ... it was great!!!

I remember being in Brogdon Hall ... and we would all be using Craig's N64 in the lobby playing mario kart ... For DAYS!!!

Winner stayed ... 2nd 3rd and 4th handed their controlers to the next in line to play ...

We all became pro's at that game ...


I think one night someone tried to introduce some starfox ... but we would have none of that!!!


Then ... her family went to dinner and took us with them ...

We went to the japanese sushi place ... it was GREAT!!! for some reason ... it just all tastes so good to me!!!

I even tried a new beer i have never heard of before ... Asuki ... or something .... it was ... ok ... certainly a taste i had catagorized with over seas beer taste...


and then back to her place to watch movies ...






I left there .... and came home to an empty house ...

I tried calling my roommate ... he was at some party somewhere ...


I let that be ... and just showered and went to bed ....





I had such a LONG dream last night .... I mean ... normally dreams are short ... and seem to end quickly ...

no ... this one seemed to go on forever ... and then i woke up ... and was like .. wow .. i must have slept all day!!!

nah .. i look at my clock ... it's 8am ... i was like ... well ...

i'm up .. might as well start trying to be productive!!!


So i start laundry and everything ... and that was good ...


I try to get my roommate up at around noon to go eat ... but he said he was too hung over and not able to go do anything ...

so i was like ... ok ...


then something surprised me ...

his friends ... coming to the apt ....


the door was locked ....


but appearantly ... they have a key ... they let themselves in to the apt and into my roommates room ...


several times today .. they kept coming back and forth ....




but ... my roommates keys were with him


so they couldn't have been his keys ...

i guess my roommate made copies to give to his friends ....




I don't know how i feel about that one ...


I started trusting him .. to the point where i would feel safe leaving my door open and not locking it ...


but now .. knowing that everyone has a key ...



















Ah ... Trust ....


something that takes a life time to build ...


and a second to destroy ...







This has been a pretty hard week on my Trust ...











moving on ....


You know what i miss doing ...



and this is no lie ...


and i found myself really sad today about it ......




"nothing"



i really miss doing "nothing"











I really miss being with my friends ....

sitting around ... doing nothing


just watching TV ... playing video games ...

occassionally going to the mall for a change of scenery ....




Like .. my life is really boring ...

And it's really free!!! LOL!!!

As kids we didnt do anything that took money!!!

And that was freaking GREAT!!!



I really just miss playing board games with my friends ...

I really just miss watching movies ...

I really just miss sitting around with my friends and doing nothing ...





I got a small taste of that again this weekend in Austin ...

Just a chance to be there ... and relax ... and spend time with someone very important to me ...

It made me feel good ... really good ...




Oh well ... i'm sure there will be more time coming up where the tests and assignments won't be so heavy ... and their will be more time to go out and do fun things!!!




Another interesting fact ...

The other night ...

For the first time in my life ... I asked someone to Homecoming ...

Wow ... just took me all my highschool career and all my college one too!!!

This might actually be my very first date for Homecoming ... EVER!!! :)

Ouch ... Ok ...


So I wrote a really long journal entry last night ....


And then I woke up this morning and read what I wrote ...






Yeah .... I'll put that on PRIVATE now .....
















Anyways ... so ... why am I online now? when I should be on my way to Austin all ready ???




I just slept in .... I horribly slept in ...





Erica has a Test today ...



I really hope that she does well on it!!!





She has one tomorrow too ...




I really hope that she does well!!!









Anyways ..... Blah .......


So much I REALLY wanna say ....









But I won't ...






This isn't something anyone needs to read!!!

So ... being bored .. i have decided to write more in here ... why not right?


Anyways ... lets see ... i don't have much to say ...

I am student teaching ... and that's fun ...

Erica is being beautiful and perfect as always ... ;) thats certainly awesome!

And i drive a truck that gets 6 miles a gallon and gas prices are 3 bucks a gallon ... YAY!!! now that is really the most awesomest thing ever!

Why can't i sleep? ... this is kinda sucky ... i have to be up so early everyday ... and i have to go and do so much ... and i'm really really tired ... but yet ... i can't get to sleep ...

oh well ...

I could really go for a night of board games ...

or a night of tag ...

or hide and go seek ...

or just window shopping ...

or movies ...

or reading with friends ...

or just spending 5 hours at jones or something just talking about anything and everything and laughing and carrying on ...

or how about a pie eating contest ...

or a milk drinking competition ...

or what about couch surfing?

Or what about laying out and watching the clouds ...

Or what about laying out and watching the stars ...

Or what about getting everyone together and going to 5 mile at 4 am again ...

well ok ... that trip was a little different ... but we could at least do the water part or something ...

or what about a local road trip ... where we just drive around and look for all the historical landmarks and stop at each one and take a picture?!

Or what about playing dress up ...

or having a tea party ...

or watching funny cartoons that make us laugh so hard that we cry?

or just running away for a weekend ... disappearing friday .. and not coming back again till sunday late night ... who cares where we go .. or what we do .. but we just go and do it ?

or ... well i know what i would really want ...

it's not something that i can do ...

it's not something that can be touched ...

it's something that can only be heard ...

it's something that if meant, will mean more to me than anything else ...



but let's face it ... what are the odds of any of the above happening ... especially what i want the most

but i'll tell you what i could use right now ... and that's a sandwhich ... i think i'll make myself one right now!

Words can be such powerful things ...
Words can create hope...
Words can create dreams...

Words can add such painful things to life ...
Words can create enemies...
Words can create strife...

Words can be a good deed ...
Words can create love...
Words can create need...

Words are sometimes things I wish could say ...